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here we go again....

Ok trying this again....my goal for today is little and doable....one cup of coffee, no soda and 8 glasses of water.
So far I a mood on the coffee, no soda and glass one of water is on the way!

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Arty Hugh my own worst enemy or why I hate weekends!

Seriously I eat so well during the week and work out and watch the pounds fall off the comes the weekend and bam we get busy and eating right becomes difficult or I get bored and do nothing but eat and to make matters worse Curves isn't open on the weekends so I end up not working out. I totally know it is all my own fault, like with working out there isn't anything keeping me from either doing exercise with the Wii or going walking and food well come on that is just will power.....

Needless to say I am up a couple of pounds. I a DETERMINED to do better today and hopefully the sale will reflect that. I keep getting soooo close to the 10 pound mark and then just screw myself up. Arrrrggghhhhhh

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woot, down 2 lbs this morning for a grand total since starting of 9.7.  I really hate I let myself gain almost three pounds over the Labor day weekend or I would be down more like 14 by now!  No sense crying over split milk though, wont get those pounds back so I am going to be happy that I have hit the next zero on the scale, by tomorrow I should(WILL) be below and working on the next 10 pounds to whittle away until I get to my ultimate goal.  According to the Wii I should be aiming at an ultimate goal of 145.1.  I can't even imagine that.  Not that I think it is such an unattainable goal but the last time I got below like one 170 I started looking SICK.  So for now my long term goal is just to get under 200....199 here I come!!! 

catching up....

so it seems I can diet or I can blog, I choose diet!  SO I am going to update maybe weekly on this blog unless I have significant information to share.  As of today I am trying to do the 17day diet but had a bad weekend with Labor day and all.  So I am considering tomorrow (well today it is after midnight) Cycle 1 day 1 and rebooting myself.  
Also I have been going to Curves for work outs.  I had a free week that they offer on their website (www.curves.com, check it out!) and then I have a Groupon for a month membership.  I figure by then the weather will have cooled off enough that I will be able to get back to walking.  I swear, the more I hear of friends who run the more I want to run.  I think I am making a short term goal of running a 5 k by the end of the year.  I guess I have to find one to run first!!! Ok so realistically I probably will be walking the first one but eventually I WILL run one!!!!!!  

Oh so as of last Friday I was down 8 pounds, I know I gained over the weekend but I am trying to reel myself back in so I can get back to losing. 

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So call me a quitter, a loser, whatever but at least for right now I can NOT do this diet! I am going to. Try to stick to some of the principles but for the day and 2/3's I was on it I was MISERABLE. I couldn't find enough food to keep me in the fullness zone he wants you in. Maybe it is because my son is still nursing, I don't know but the hunger and the fact that we leave on vacation in a week jut convinced me I was setting myself up for failure!

so for yesterday I followed the plan until lunch but then I had spaghetti for dinner. The good thing was the spaghetti FILLED ME UP and I made it the rest if the night with out snacking!! Oh and you know what? I still lost 1.1lbs!! Might not have pounds just falling off but they are still coming off! I am going to continue posting my food and exercise for accountability so I hope no one minds!e

So for today...

Breakfast: 2 eggs scrambled with mushrooms
Lunch: salmon filet stir fried with mushrooms and asparagus and balsamic vinegar
Snack: tortilla chips, small snow cone
Probiotics: 2 cups kefir
Dinner:spaghetti with meat sauce and garlic bread
2 cups coffee
8-8oz cups water

Exercise:
25 minutes on the wii fit. (step, garden run, bike, rhythmic Kung fu, ski jump and a couple others)

Weight: 256lbs

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So I survived the first day. It was really hard I have to admit. It is crazy because the short version of the plan is Eat all of the lean protein and 'cleansing' veggies(most veggies fall in this area) then two servings of fruit and two servings of probiotics all you really have to watch/count ate the fruit and probiotics. Even though I swear I ate 2 lbs of chicken I was hungry. It totally makes sense though I am burning fuel in a different way and none of that bad stuff that just sits and keeps you full but yet you can't seem to stop eating! What ever the reason, I am down 3.3 pounds since yesterday so I will fought it out another day! My friends tell me by day four it will be easier so I am going to push through. After the first 17 day cycle I can add red meat back in so it will get easier, I hope.....

Since I am posting these updates in the am I believe I will update from the day prior except for morning weigh ins.

So...
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Breakfast: 2 egg omelet with mushrooms and tomatoes
Lunch: salad made with mixed baby frees, mushrooms, grape tomatoes, and tuna fish
Dinner: grilled chicken and asparagus
Probiotics: 2 servings strawberry kefir
Fruit: 2 apples
8 oz lemon water
12-8 oz glasses of water



C1D2 weight: 257

17 day diet...

So I am starting this 'lifestyle' change today following this_book by dr. Mike Moreno and featured on the show the Doctors.
It is based on 17 day cycles, I will go into more detail next time because my son has his 2 yr well check this morning but here are my stats so far....


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Weight:261.5 (absolute highest weight EVER!) if it matters today is also day on of something else :X

Warm lemon water (gag) done
Breakfast: 2 eggs scrambled with mushrooms and grape tomatoes
Water: so far I have had 32 oz.

Exercise: 18 minutes on the wii. Advanced step, rhythmic boxing, island run and hula hoop. Yes, as a matter of fact my heart rate is up and I was sweating!! (for anyone how doesn't know about this plan, he actually only tells you to do 17 minutes of exercise in this beginning cycle-I am sure the more you do the more you will lose but o just wanted to be sure I got the min in before my busy day starts!)

Ok so off to shower and get kiddos ready......time to start the day!

Well I don't know for sure what day I am on....

Fourth of July really knocked me off course and I missed a few posts. So I will check the days for my next post title. Any who, I have done bad with food and o exercise during the time I was away so maybe it doesn't so much matter anyway.

Tray I did pretty good. I did have some toast with sprinkles but I actually got 2.02 miles in on my gazelle tonight so I am feeling pretty good right now. I am however really fighting the urge to go have a snack so that isn't so great. Maybe having typed that on here I will be able to resist the urge.

I haven some pretty serious family stuff going on and I wonder if that isn't leading to me wanting to sabotage. My bio father, no I am not adopted but he left my mother when I was barely 5 so even though I spent two weeks in the summer and every other holiday with him I really don't know him. Even those court forced visits have been over for a good 27 years. Well he decided to move from California to NC last September to be 'near the grandkids' but even in that time I can count on one hand the number of times we have seen them(he is married). They never called and asked us over and cranky I never thought to stop by with no invitation first. So long story even longer, a few months back my older sister who actually has a relationship with my dad and step mother god a job out of state and moved to Tennessee which prompted my bio and step to move back out west, which they were to do at the end of this month after our big 2 birthday party. So this past Friday m bio falls down the walkway at his apartment cracking his skull. While in the hospital he has a heart attack and ends up on a vent and unconscious. My step mother is beside herself. Out of his four kids o am the on physically nearest at the moment but emotionally the most detached. It isn't that I have I'll feelings towards the man, I just have no feelings. It is like they are just people I have recently met. Heck I am closer to many of my online only friends than I am with them but yet here it is. I have to be the one to be strong and help and possibly hold my step mothers hand next week when she may have to decide to pull the plug. They said if he doesn't come out of it on his own the discussion will have to be had.

I do feel bad for the step mother she is considerably younger than my bio dad, she has been with him since she was probably 22 or so(she is only 8 yrs older than me.). I honestly believe she will be fine on her own but she cant possibly believe that eight now, he is all she has ever known.

Anyway, so I am assuming I am going to try to eat my stress, I am very uncomfortable in this situation, but I am going to try to have will power. If you have read this far, say a prayer that this goes easy on my step mother and whatever happens that it is easy for my bio too. He may have never been there for me growing up but I don't wish suffering on anyone and it would be his wife that suffers anyway if he lingers.

Mission of the week...

I have decided to give myself weekl missions. This week I will work to eliminate the huge amount of sugar in my morning coffee.

Day 6,7 and 8

Well it is a Holiday weekend here in the Good Old USA.  Like most holiday weekends I have celebrated by what? EATING.  I really haven't don bad just not great.  I weigh today and once again I seem to be back to the 2.2 lb yo yo.  (up this time) I know my biggest problem right now is no exercise.  That will be my main focus this week...EXERCISE!!!

Day 5

Food not terrible finished off the chocolate chip cookie dough and cookies
Water drank tons but since the kids keep stealing my bottle and drinking it really becomes near impossible to track!

Exercise... this is the hard one, it is sooo hot it is hard to do much but I did spend time doing laps in my 16 ft pool and other things like crunches so I am counting it as getting something done.  

I am going to weigh myself tomorrow but I am not expecting  much because of the cookies... of to bed, the man is crying night

Day 4

Well today was pretty good until I decided to bake chocolate chip cookies. That batter is like my kryptonite!
Any way food ok, drank a ton if water but didnt track, exercise none. Ugh. Having kids does make this difficult!

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Day 3

Let's see, not a total fail. I got 10 minutes in on my gazelle for exercise. I ate little bits of food all day long and didn't drink nearly enough water but I did get on the gazelle so that is something. Tomorrow is a walking day, going to strive for 3 miles if the little will cooperate.

Day 2

Sell I did really well with the exercise yesterday. I walked 1.6 miles in 38 minutes while pushing 80 lbs of kids in the stroller in about 85 degree very humid weather.

I didn't do quite as well in the food department, I did a lot of snacking. I think it is one downfall to being a stay at home mom but I am working on it.

The good news is I weighed myself and was down .9 lbs not much but it was enough to help me make. Y goal on the wii fit which hasn't happened in a very long time!

I didn't track my water but I did drink it all day. I did break down and had some coffee. My body is obviously addicted to it because I was hurting, baaaddd before I caved and had some.

Day 1

Well today hasn't been great but not an epic fail either so I I'll take it! I ate ok but could have done better. I did play in the pool for about n hour. It is a 16 ft pool so nothing great but I did do laps and some general water aerobics. I drank a ton of water but used several different cups and or bottles so lost track of just how much. I will keep better track tomorrow. I always feel better starting these things full force on Monday want way. So until tomorrow......

Starting today! (how many times have I said that?)

I guess I have realized that I don't have a fairy Godmother and no one is going to come hold my hAnd and make me do this(unless I pay them to which I cant do) so it is all up to me. My weight gain is actually kind of worry g me this time because I have gained in places I never have before, what is that? I am so blown up I look about 8 months pregnant!

Anyway I digress! My plan is to start out today by watching more closely what I eat. As horrifying as it may seem this is going to include removing coffee from my diet. I know coffee. Doesn't have to be bad for you but I can't drink it with out like a cup of sugar and a ton of cream so it is better I just remove it and maybe give myself like a once a week treat. I think I am going to try spark again. I used to post with them and it was nice to get rewards for staying on task.

So:
food: track and watch what I eat.
Water: drink 80 oz a day
Exercise: Mon/Wed/Fri I will walk in my neighborhood. I am going to work up to 9 + miles per week
Tues/Thurs kettle bells at home (or other in home workout)

Now the icky part

Weight:257
Bust:50
Waist:45
Hips:53
Thighs(l): 28
Calf:(l):17.5
arm(l):16


I will weigh in weekly but take measurements only once a month. Now....for a starting picture......

(excuse the awkward angle, my 6 yr old had to take the picture for me)

off the wagon AGAIN....

yeah yeah I know but it is so incredibly hot I can't do any walking outside and my kids have been so completely annoying that I can't get anything done inside.  I feel like crap about it and something has to give but when I think about how depressed I am about it I eat.... stupid vicious cycle!

De ja vu...

I was going to tile this post frustrated but then realized I have already posted with that title! I am so tired of going to bed hungry and waking up hungry and never seeing a dip on the scale! It is to the point I was researching lap band surgery. Unfortunately I don't think any one would approve me for it because I have crohn's disease. Although my crohns has been in remission since about 2006 or 2007 all the research seems to lean towards it is contraindicated for people with crohns. SOOO I guess I am on my own. The good news though my sister just moved and she chose to leave her gazelle behind and I adopted it. I now can get some exercise done inside After the kids go to bed!

Anyway, long story short I am so grossed out over the fact that I am bigger than I have ever been. I just wish I could see change. I miss being able to go to the gym but it just isn't possible right now so I am making the best of things.

Goals for this week:
Walk ( or Gazelle) 10 miles. Not really a crazy goal because I can hit 2 miles with out even much trying.
Water down at least 400 oz. Really an optimistic goal but I really should be getting at least 100 oz a day anyway.


Well that is it for now I will check back in Friday hopefully with good news!

one week later...

This past week has just flown by, can't say with what but boy have we been BUSY!  So busy I wasn't able to post my weigh in Monday, but today today I am down exactly two pounds.  Unfortunately I am still up a smidge from last week. Oh well, Rome wasn't built in a day, right?  

This last week I did much better drinking water and watching what I ate as well as not so much snacking after dinner.  In the week ahead I am focusing on me and trying to actually get some exercise going again.  The temps bottomed out but they should be coming back up soon so I can walk outside again AND in the mean time there was a recent groupon for a discounted month at Curves.  I have always wanted to try them out so I figured not time like now.  I was going to start today (April 1) but I decided it would be better to start on a Monday.  I want to get the most from that month!  
I am also trying to eat Paleo for this month.  I started today with a recipe I found at Paleo Perfectly for steak and bacon soup.  My hubby wasn't interested or impressed however he wont touch anything with any 'color' (ie veggies) in it.  I however LOVED it.  I am thrilled that no one else decided to eat any because now I will have a couple of more meals from it!  I am very excited about the recipes I have seen on that blog and hope to try many more in the month to come.  

I do have to add as good as I was most of the day, I ended today with a little (too much) ice cream and I did snack a little on the pop corn my hubby brought home from the movie he saw today ( who can resist movie pop corn!) 

Tomorrow I am having a girls night which will include some adult beverages.  I will have to make sure to get some fitness in this weekend to make up for it. 

friday weigh in(on Thursday)

Since I don't know if I will be near a scale for the nextt few days I wanted to go ahead and weigh today to hoopefully motivate myself to stay on track for the weekend. I am happy to report it worked! I am down below that stinking 2 pounds I keep fighting with!! My weight today is 252.2. It isn't a huge loss since last week but it still feels like a win to me!(2 pounds since last week but in between I had gained to it is actually a bit of a bigger loss than it appears!)
I also did pretty well with my mini goal of no snacks after dinner and I am even finding myself not looking for snacks as much now. I wasn't quite as good with the water but I have been drinking more just not quite as much more as I would like. SO..
for the weekend my goal is just not tto over indulge and to continue working on the water. Hopefuly I will be back Monday with more good news.
Happy St. Patrick's day!!!

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frustrated....

Well the good news is I am down 1.5 lbs. The bad news is that ALMOST gets me back to where I was 10 days ago!
That's ok though, I am not going to let it get to me. This just means by my Friday weigh in I should be able to say I have finally broken this 2.2 lb yoyo cycle I have been in. Oh except I will be out of town Friday so I will just have to be very good so I can post a really good number next week!
My mini goal for this week is to up my water intake and NO eating after 7 pm.
What are your goals???

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Friday weigh in

I am sooo glad I looked back at Monday's post because now I feel better about today's weigh in. I weighed in today at 254.2. Not as much as I had hoped for but at least I am down!!

being accountable to myself....

so I didn't get to put my mile walk in today but I will say I did ok with food.  I had half an English muffin for breakfast (not trying to be all 'noble' just so busy feeding the kids it was all I got around to) lunch was a piece of salmon and dinner was some chicken gnocchi I made with the Philadelphia cream cheese cooking sauce stuff they recently introduced.  I didn't even eat much of that but it really filled me up. Oh wait I also had a little salad with that, so that probably helped.  Right now my head says go snack and my belly is saying WHOOOO no way woman!  (that never happens. lol  
 

Monday weigh in

Not much to say this morning but wanted to post my first weigh in my official weight for today is 256.4.  So I am actually up from where I was but down for where I went, lol.  I will weigh again Friday and hopefully have something good to report!  (oh and between now and then I am going to try to take my measurements.  I have found in the past that this can sometimes be much more encouraging!)

I can say I woke up hungry today which hasn't happened in a while.  I find when I am able to stick to not eating after 7 or 8 then I tend to wake up hungry, so I will take that as I did something right.  So I am off to start my day.  So much to do, so little time.  Good morning all!!!

quick update...

So I haven't posted much on this blog because I haven't had anything to post.  I am holding steady but I guess that isn't as bad as gaining, I would just rather be losing!  

So since I can see spring on the horizon, as I sit myself down to plan my week for my daughter and myself (home school and college schedule!) I will be including a 1 mile walk daily whether I can do it outside (which is my preference) or if I must I can also do it on my wii fit.  I also hope to do at least 30 minutes of working out for fun on the wii fit.  

So there's my plan!  I will update in a week and let you know how it goes!

damned binge eating!

got some exercies in today walking across campus to get my refund check from college BUT then we ended up eating dinner at a hibatchi restaurant and had a whole plate of left overs to bring home...... well sitting home avoiding homework I HAVE to get done.... I ate it ALLLLLL  Big FAIL for today!!!
That is ok though, all I can do is put it behind me and do better tomorrow. 

Oh I have one more goal to add going into next week.  I have GOT to stop eating out so much.  I swear everyday it is something family dinner, meet up with friends, I am hungry....always something!!! 

I WILL DO BETTER!

Day 2

Ok, I know I know, I shouldn't get on the scale everyday but hey my Wii yells at me when I don't!!!  So that said I did weigh myself today and it is all good, I was down just over a pound!  So today's weight was 256.4.  I didn't actually get to 'exercise' but I did take Baby Waffle to Kindermusik and quite frankly that will count!!!  Up down rolling around on the floor (seriously!)

I did have to go to a family dinner tonight at the Olive Garden but I hope that didn't mess me up too much.....

Losing it day one

So I decided to start a seperate thread for my weight loss journey so if you are only interested in the kids you don't have to read all my whining about being so fat!  Here goes....

 I am officially dating today as day one.  As I already posted I weighed in today at 257.7 lbs the MOST I have ever weighed even at 9 months pregnant I wasn't this much.  So my journey begins. 

I did have twizzlers today BUT I got a small work out in and I have not snacked since 8 pm.  (I think I stopped eating sooner than 8 but I know I haven't had anything since then!) 

It is my plan to weigh in once a week at least and post my results here.  I also hope to post daily what I do that day to keep my self accountable.  I have to commit this time, I did so good last year but somehow fell far off the wagon when the weather got cold so I am getting it together.  We plan on camping at the beach a lot this summer and I don't want to be an embarrassment!!!! 
My short term goal is one pound this week, no late snacks and exercise at least three times this week.  My slightly longer goal is to lose 10 pounds when I do I get to treat myself to a spa haircut.  Come on pounds!!!!!