Tuesday, January 29, 2013

R4P2D22


weight: 219.8
Down:-1.1

total lost this round: 9.5
total lost over all: 51.4



I had a good day yesterday.  I had grilled chicken and lettuce for lunch and a bit of pork steak for dinner.  snacked on an apple and orange during the day.   Sorry,  I don't have time for more... my little man is trying to drag me away.  ;) 

Monday, January 28, 2013

R4P2D21

Sorry, busy weekend.  My little girl turns 8 tomorrow and that means a sleep over with her friends and a big family gathering.  That also mean Grandma's most delicious birthday cake and a large batch of won tons which equal to a 1.8 lb gain.  Am I happy about this? No but to be honest I really expected it to be more so I will not complain.  I did it to myself.  I have really not done well this round.  I have 20 pounds I really want to lose but for what ever reason my focus isn't here like it has been int he past.

The next big event in our life is a move, which isn't helping but I am going to break this plateau(it isn't really so much a plateau as a mental block at this weight) but I AM going to do it!   

Thursday, January 24, 2013

R4P2D19

weight: 219.1
Down:-1.1

total lost this round: 10.1
total lost over all: 52.1


 I did so much better yesterday. I fought my urge to eat rather than give into it, which has been my problem lately.  I isn't that I have been hungry I have just WANTED to eat but I fought that last night AND then low and behold my 'friend' showed up this morning which really does explain a lot from the last couple of days. 

So yesterday I had shrimp and cabbage for lunch and a little lean beef for dinner with an apple for a snack.  

This weekend is my daughter's birthday and I know I will be tempted but luckily now I know at least some people really read this and will probably call me out when you see me nibbling on junk so I will fight the urge!   

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

R4P2D18

weight: 220.2
Down:+1.3

total lost this round: 9
total lost over all: 51


 I want to use several bad words here.  It is like I have some kind of freaking mental block at this weight.  I sabotage myself EVERY freaking time I get to this range.  I did it to myself, I know what I did I just couldn't stop myself from eating.  I was making won tons for my daughter's birthday party this weekend and I just kept eating them.  

I did just realize this morning I have my yearly physical coming up in a few weeks which I hope will give me the motivation to stay on track now.  I REALLY want to walk in there under 200 (or as close to it as possible!)  So bug me, stay on me, tell me to Stay Calm and Don't Eat when my kids are making me nuts because that is my other problem.  I am self medicating with food when they drive me nuts (which has been a lot lately!) 

Thanks, and thanks for reading!!!

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

R4P2D17

weight: 218.7
Down:1.1

total lost this round: 10.6
total lost over all: 52.6


Ok, I know I missed a few days.  I have had a rough week.  I have actually been up around 2 pounds and I am finally back to where I was the last time I posted.   I am still having problems with hunger more than in previous rounds and stress eating is getting to me.  I am trying really hard to get over this.  

Yesterday, I had a salad from Chick fila for lunch and just a little chicken for dinner with an apple for snack.  I was craving the crap out of chocolate though so I wonder if my 'time' is coming earlier than I expect, actually with my mood and a few other factors I am almost positive that is what is going on. 

Friday, January 18, 2013

R4P2D14

weight: 218.5
Down:.2

total lost this round: 10.8
total lost over all: 52.8


Kind of frustrating, you do everything right and end up with a .2 loss.  I am not letting it bother me I know sometimes your fat cells empty but fill with water so then tomorrow if I do everything right today I should have a very NICE number on the scale.....here's hoping.  

I did just realize I didn't eat any fruit yesterday so could have something to do with that.  Note to self, don't forget fruit!!!

Thursday, January 17, 2013

R4P2D13

weight: 218.7
Down:.9

total lost this round: 10.6
total lost over all: 52.6



Yesterday was a much better day.  I had shrimp and bok choy for lunch and a grilled chicken salad for dinner.  I had two apples during the day for my snacks.  I did nibble on a few Doritos...I have to real that habit in (Damn you taco flavored Doritos!) 

For those who are concerned.  Little Waffle had a fantastic night at gymnastics.  I think giving her the little break to eat was just what she needed but also she just seemed to be in better spirits over all going in last night.  Thank fully no tears and she was bouncing around, singing and dancing when we got home!  I do believe they should probably let ALL the girls have a little longer break at some point during the night but I am just thankful it seems to be helping my girl. 

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

R4P2D12

weight: 219.6
Down: 2.0

total lost this round: 9.7
total lost over all: 51.6


Phew, so nice to see another 2 pound loss!  I think I am FINALLY back on track!  Yesterday I went to the grocery store to restock so I got some chicken from the salad bar to bring home and use with salad I already have here for lunch.  For dinner I made cube steaks for the family so instead of making mine in the gravy I just pan fried one with onions and some P2 safe steak seasoning.  I also had an apple and an orange during the day for snacks.  

Also in regards to full transparency I have to admit I also snuck 2 cookies and about 5 taco flavored Doritos and yes still lost 2 pounds (just have to wonder how many I would have lost if I had NOT cheated....)  

Today I have a handful of chicken breast cuts ready to grill up so I can have them ready at hand for the trip to gymnastics.  I am also going to prep a small dinner for little Waffle in hopes that she manages to make it the whole way through her practice without tears (wish us luck).  

Now, time for some COFFEEEEEEEEEEEE>>>>>>  

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

R4P2D11

weight: 221.6
Down: 2.0

total lost this round: 7.7
total lost over all: 49.6



Man I am having such a hard time staying on track this time.  I don't know what my problem is but I suspect in may be in part from ignoring my daily posts here SO I am going to try to find time to fit this in.  Things have gotten extremely busy but that is no excuse, if I want to win this fight I have to get my head in the right place.   So no more skipping.  

I am not going to try to tell you what I ate the days I skipped blogging, it is far too many days and frankly I am not proud of what I let pass through my lips.  I honestly have no clue how I am down today but I am going to be proud that I am and get my head in the right place from here.  


Part of my trouble has been my daughter's new gymnastics schedule.  We are at the gym from 4-7pm MWF (and Sat from 10-1)  It is too early to eat dinner before we go but by the time we get home it is really too late.  Today is an off day so I am going to take advantage of the opportunity and grill up a bunch of chicken and put it in baggies so I can grab a salad and go on practice days.  I will just have to eat the salad at the gym.  

Ok game plan in place, time to go get some food in this house! 

Thursday, January 10, 2013

R4P2D6

weight: 221.5
Down: .5

total lost this round: 8
total lost over all: 49.9


Ugh, I have a cold.  I would probably be down more if it were for the stuffiness in my head!  Anyway, yesterday was a good day but I think some of the past indiscretions of my week are catching up with me, hence the less than great loss. 

I had another 3/1 omelet for lunch and then a grilled chicken salad for dinner.  I was a little low on food so not many options, need to hit the store today.  Also my daughter's gymnastics schedule has left me a little screwed up.  Monday, Wednesday and Friday's she is at the gym from 4 to 7 pm.  Makes it tough to eat at a decent time, so I need to figure how to manage my time better. I am getting there though.  I am so ready to see the end of this journey.  I am very committed to this journey but at the same time it is very difficult to care for a family and make sure they are getting what they need when I am not able to eat what they are eating and have to essentially make two meals every time I cook~

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

R4P2D5

weight: 221.8
Down: 1.1

total lost this round: 7.5
total lost over all: 49.4 (I didn't gain 10 pounds, just did poor math last time) 


Not much to say, my food choices were horrid yesterday so I am just thankful I am still down today.  I am having a little trouble getting excited about my food this round, what little there is to get excited about.  I don't really know what the problem is.  I really am excited to see 219(love dropping below those zeros) hopefully I can make my food work for me today and get there tomorrow....fingers crossed.  I am losing at a good pace.  I believe I have 12 pounds to go to make my first goal on my wii.....and I have about a week to do it.  I just hope I don't let this weekend kill me....OH good grief I just realized I have birthday parties Sat and Sun to go too!  wish me luck!!!

Lunch yesterday was 3 egg white/1 whole egg omelet with onions and dinner was a piece of red meat with not much in the way of veggie because we appear to be out.  I need to refresh my apples and veggies. 

I am also going to try to get around to getting measurements today, while it is still relatively close to the date I started.  inches always seem to go faster than pounds and are a good motivator. 

Sunday, January 6, 2013

R4P2D2

weight: 227.4
Down: 2.9

total lost this round: 4.9
total lost over all: 59.4


So far so good, not much to report.  I am having a little trouble with hunger but I am adjusting.  It helps when you see a good 2.9 change!   

Yesterday I ate shrimp and bok choy for lunch and grilled chicken salad for dinner.  I had an apple for morning snack, orange for later snack.  I did cheat a little so I am glad it didn't back fire.  

What I did (smartly) do was when I cooked the chicken for my salad I went ahead and grilled up three other servings. So I am set for a few days.  I am soooooo ready to hit 199!!!! 

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

R4P1D1

weight: 229.3
Down:0

total lost this round:0
total lost over all:41.9


Well here we go.  Starting my first round of the new year. So disgusted with myself and what I let happen over Christmas but I am not going to beat myself up about it.  I have 65 pounds to get to my goal, I CAN do this!  I have my fat loading days today and tomorrow.....then I can start seeing the pounds melt off.  In theory I should be able to make my goal by Easter!  I am not going to put that pressure on myself though.  I will be happy if I am there by my one year date (June 2) 

Measurements:
Well measurements will have to wait, can't seem to find my tape measure...will add as soon as I can. 
 
Ok off to take my first dose and have some breakfast....

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Happy New Year!!!

Ok so I know it is very cliche BUT New Year New Me!  It is really just coincidence that everything lined up for me to start round four right now but it has and I am READY to go!  

I will be measuring and weighing in tomorrow morning and I I will also take a before picture.  I know I didn't slip a TON between Disney and Christmas but I did slip so I am ready to get back on track.  

My goal for the new year is to get down to AT LEAST 170, after that I will take things day by day.  I will set my goal for this round in the morning when I see exactly where I have slipped to.  

Until tomorrow.....