R4P2D21

Sorry, busy weekend.  My little girl turns 8 tomorrow and that means a sleep over with her friends and a big family gathering.  That also mean Grandma's most delicious birthday cake and a large batch of won tons which equal to a 1.8 lb gain.  Am I happy about this? No but to be honest I really expected it to be more so I will not complain.  I did it to myself.  I have really not done well this round.  I have 20 pounds I really want to lose but for what ever reason my focus isn't here like it has been int he past.

The next big event in our life is a move, which isn't helping but I am going to break this plateau(it isn't really so much a plateau as a mental block at this weight) but I AM going to do it!   

R4P2D19

weight: 219.1
Down:-1.1
total lost this round: 10.1
total lost over all: 52.1

 I did so much better yesterday. I fought my urge to eat rather than give into it, which has been my problem lately.  I isn't that I have been hungry I have just WANTED to eat but I fought that last night AND then low and behold my 'friend' showed up this morning which really does explain a lot from the last couple of days. 

So yesterday I had shrimp and cabbage for lunch and a little lean beef for dinner with an apple for a snack.  

This weekend is my daughter's birthday and I know I will be tempted but luckily now I know at least some people really read this and will probably call me out when you see me nibbling on junk so I will fight the urge!   

R4P2D18

weight: 220.2
Down:+1.3
total lost this round: 9
total lost over all: 51

 I want to use several bad words here.  It is like I have some kind of freaking mental block at this weight.  I sabotage myself EVERY freaking time I get to this range.  I did it to myself, I know what I did I just couldn't stop myself from eating.  I was making won tons for my daughter's birthday party this weekend and I just kept eating them.  

I did just realize this morning I have my yearly physical coming up in a few weeks which I hope will give me the motivation to stay on track now.  I REALLY want to walk in there under 200 (or as close to it as possible!)  So bug me, stay on me, tell me to Stay Calm and Don't Eat when my kids are making me nuts because that is my other problem.  I am self medicating with food when they drive me nuts (which has been a lot lately!) 

Thanks, and thanks for reading!!!

R4P2D17

weight: 218.7
Down:1.1
total lost this round: 10.6
total lost over all: 52.6

Ok, I know I missed a few days.  I have had a rough week.  I have actually been up around 2 pounds and I am finally back to where I was the last time I posted.   I am still having problems with hunger more than in previous rounds and stress eating is getting to me.  I am trying really hard to get over this.  

Yesterday, I had a salad from Chick fila for lunch and just a little chicken for dinner with an apple for snack.  I was craving the crap out of chocolate though so I wonder if my 'time' is coming earlier than I expect, actually with my mood and a few other factors I am almost positive that is what is going on. 

R4P2D14

weight: 218.5
Down:.2
total lost this round: 10.8
total lost over all: 52.8

Kind of frustrating, you do everything right and end up with a .2 loss.  I am not letting it bother me I know sometimes your fat cells empty but fill with water so then tomorrow if I do everything right today I should have a very NICE number on the scale.....here's hoping.  

I did just realize I didn't eat any fruit yesterday so could have something to do with that.  Note to self, don't forget fruit!!!

R4P2D13

weight: 218.7
Down:.9
total lost this round: 10.6
total lost over all: 52.6


Yesterday was a much better day.  I had shrimp and bok choy for lunch and a grilled chicken salad for dinner.  I had two apples during the day for my snacks.  I did nibble on a few Doritos...I have to real that habit in (Damn you taco flavored Doritos!) 

For those who are concerned.  Little Waffle had a fantastic night at gymnastics.  I think giving her the little break to eat was just what she needed but also she just seemed to be in better spirits over all going in last night.  Thank fully no tears and she was bouncing around, singing and dancing when we got home!  I do believe they should probably let ALL the girls have a little longer break at some point during the night but I am just thankful it seems to be helping my girl. 

R4P2D12

weight: 219.6
Down: 2.0
total lost this round: 9.7
total lost over all: 51.6

Phew, so nice to see another 2 pound loss!  I think I am FINALLY back on track!  Yesterday I went to the grocery store to restock so I got some chicken from the salad bar to bring home and use with salad I already have here for lunch.  For dinner I made cube steaks for the family so instead of making mine in the gravy I just pan fried one with onions and some P2 safe steak seasoning.  I also had an apple and an orange during the day for snacks.  

Also in regards to full transparency I have to admit I also snuck 2 cookies and about 5 taco flavored Doritos and yes still lost 2 pounds (just have to wonder how many I would have lost if I had NOT cheated....)  

Today I have a handful of chicken breast cuts ready to grill up so I can have them ready at hand for the trip to gymnastics.  I am also going to prep a small dinner for little Waffle in hopes that she manages to make it the whole way through her practice without tears (wish us luck).  

Now, time for some COFFEEEEEEEEEEEE>>>>>>