R1P2D14

weight: 257.0
Down: 1.6
total lost this round: 15.2
total lost over all: 15.2



Ok so 1.6 is nothing to shake a stick at but it has been a couple of days,dang it it should have been more.  I went on a road trip and was PERFECT, I didn't cheat ONCE even when I was driving and exhausted.   I do think I might not have had enough water so maybe tomorrow will be a really big number if I get all my water plus more today.   I know I should be happy I mean I am over halfway to my goal and I still have 16 days to go but still, it gets easy to get frustrated.  The good thing those is frustration doesn't make me automatically want to shove food in my face like it usually would. 

All that said, I can say I had some one who doesn't know I am working so hard ask if I had been losing weight.  She said she could tell so that was nice, nice to know my hard work is paying off and people can see it.   

R1P2D12

weight: 258.6
Down: 1.2
total lost this round: 13.6
total lost over all: 13.6




Ok, so I am not complaining but geesh after a day of just 5 apples I would have thought it would have been more!  Oh well, at least it was a good loss and really I have 18 days to lose 10.6 pounds which will make is my goal of 25.6 pounds down from this round.  


I will say I will be more appreciative of the food I CAN eat now!!


Ok, have to pack up and hit the road today so I wont be weighing again until Monday.  Fingers crossed I don't mess this up.  I usually HAVE to have some kind of junk to keep me going in the car but I am going to bring some Extra sugar free gum (if it is good enough for the biggest loser it should be good enough for me, right?????  

Round 1 phase 2 Day 6

weight: 264
Down: 1
total lost this round: 9
total lost over all: 9


Sorry kind of took the weekend off.  I know I know usually I do that when I have had a few bad days but no, not this time.  Just too busy to really take the time.   I am actually doing pretty well.  As you can see I am down 9 pounds in 5 days (cause today is actually the 6th day)   Best part is the ravenous hunger is GONE.  I am actually having trouble eating the amount of food I was supposed to eat for lunch today so I think that is awesome.   

Not too much else to add right now.  OH I will say my heart grew a few sizes this weekend when my 11 year old daughter told me 'mommy I can tell already' and she pointed right to the area I am noticing change in.  I usually have crazy stomach bloat but that is the first place I seem to be seeing change.   I really need to do measurements, I will try my best to get that done in the morning and add it to tomorrow's post.  Now where is that measuring tape? 

R1P2D3 the day the dietbet began

weight: 268.8
Down: .8
total lost this round: 4.8
total lost over all: 4.8


I am totally not surprised with today's results.  Not that .8 is anything to be upset about but several factors come into play on why I think it wasn't more.  First of all, there is no way I can expect to lose close to 4 pounds every day.  As long as I am losing, I am happy.  Not to mention I am still at better than 2lbs a day so far.  If this was to keep up that would mean I could lose 60lbs by the time I finish this one 30 day round.  I really don't expect that to be happy.  Would I LIKE it too?  SURE of course I would but I will be happy if I can finish this first round down 30.  Another factor is that yesterday was HARD, I was really hungry from the time I woke up until the time I went to sleep.  I didn't have any terrible cravings or anything but I was just HUNGRY. I had 'miracle' noodles with chicken and a little tomato sauce for lunch, an apple for a snack and then some lean beef with onions for dinner.  I was still hungry so I ended up having a little of the roast chicken I had made for the family for dinner.  
The final factor would probably be the miracle noodles themselves.  I mean like HCG Chica says they are basically the nutritional equivalent of cardboard.  It is all fiber and sometimes takes a minute to leave the body.  

I woke up feeling a little less hungry this morning.  The head ache is still there so I have had another cup of black coffee.  I am hoping the headache leaves soon.  

The last thing I wanted to talk about today is Dietbet.  I have finally broken down and signed up for one with the some other members of my travel agency.  I have 4 weeks to lose 4% of my weight, according to my weigh in this morning that means 10.8lbs.   I actually hope they don't red flag me or something if they think I am losing too much for it to be legit!   The pot last I looked was up to $140 and if I understand it correctly, everyone who loses at least 4% will divided that up at the end. 

So that is it for my ramblings for today.  Two days of VLCD's down 28 to go......I can do this, right?   

R1P2D2 The day the day I broke out the black coffee

weight: 269.6
Down: 3.6
total lost this round: 4
total lost over all: 4

Day one was actually not so bad.  I had a nice lean steak salad for lunch with and orange and then for dinner I sautéed some chicken and put it with some cabbage. 

I am very proud of myself, I didn't cheat at all and well I guess it shows with that nice almost 4 pound loss.  I even got in all the water I am supposed to get.  


Today however is already starting as a struggle. I know day two can be more difficult.  Last night I started getting a REALLY bad headache.  I think it has to be from going cold turkey from sugar and caffeine.  I woke up today with HORRIBLE headache pain and also really hungry!  I decided to try to ease both issues with a cup of coffee BUT yes I am drinking it black.   


I WILL look good in a bathing suit for my cruise!  I will NOT fail this time!!!!

That said I will be very happy to grocery shop tomorrow, cause man we are low on EVERYTHING!

I am BACK and fatter than ever!

So I have been here before but I REFUSE to find myself here again.  My mind is in a better place than I have ever been before.  I have to do this for ME this time and I will do it.   

If you read my past blog posts you will see a few years ago I lost around 60 lbs on HCG.  I went from a 18/20 to size 14 jeans.  Reading that now makes me want to pure cry but I wont.  Life got in the way and I just have to accept I let myself get off track.  I am now the biggest I have ever been. (even bigger than when I was 9 months pregnant with my 9.4 pound baby!)  I refuse to spend anymore of my life being exhausted and embarrassed to leave the house.  It is time to get hold of my life!

My reward????? (well besides a happier life) My first Disney Cruise in the fall! I REFUSE to be embarrassed to leave my cabin! 

Once again I am going to give HCG a shot.  Only this time I am going pure with the original protocol which helped me lose 60 pounds the first time I did it.  No cheating!  


I actually started yesterday with my two loading days.  I am going to do 3 rounds to start.  My plan is to do 30 day rounds of very low calorie days with 21 days between each one where I will add in more calories to lock in the weight loss.  That will take me through September.  I am going to take a break from the HCG for my vacation and the holidays.  Depending on where I find myself at the end of my first three rounds will decide if I need to do anymore at that point.   

So stay tuned and cheer my on along this journey.  I would really love the support.   

R1P2D2

starting weight:272
todays weight: 267.0
Down:-3.6
total lost this round: 5
total lost over all: 5


I have to say that weight for today is really kind of an estimate.  I can't get my scale to give me the same weight twice.  It is now trying to say I am like 254 which would mean like 16 pounds since yesterday which is totally impossible so I am going with the first weight I saw which turns out is the most realistic of all the numbers I got.  It really sucks because this is a brand new scale and I put new batteries in it this morning when it started acting up!  I have an actual doctor's appointment tomorrow so I am going to see what their scale says and us it to figure mine out. 

Anyway, yesterday was kind of tough.  I am not sure if I was really hungry or just mentally hungry but there were times I would totally eat your arm had someone come close enough.  I am giving it a few days to really get working but if this hunger doesn't go away I am going to have to adjust my dose a little.  

I had a protein shake for breakfast, an apple for a snack.  Lunch was 3oz of shrimp stir fried with bokchoy and a zero everything salad dressing.  I did have a square of melba toast with it just for some 'crunch' in my day.   Then dinner was 3oz of chicken with miracle noodles in tomato sauce.   

I did go to be pretty hungry and I am now that I am waking up I am getting pretty hungry so I might have some eggs this morning and save the shake for a little later.  I know I missed one of my fruits yesterday but I was figuring the shake took the place of the second fruit.  

Ok off to face day 2.....wish me luck  (of for the record, the little touch of hunger-TOTALLY worth it to see those pounds come off!!)  

again....I am back.

Funny I kind of dropped of the face of the planet almost TWO years ago exactly.  I was still trying to lose weight but I lost sight of blogging about it.  Go figure, I gained back EVERY thing I ever lost and then some.  I am now back up to almost 270lbs  and that is totally UNACCEPTABLE.  

I don't care if anyone ever reads this, this is for me.  So I can be accountable to myself.  

I am starting HCG again.  That seems to be the only thing that ever worked for me so I don't know why I walked away from it.  Actually I got cocky the last time I tried it and thought I could cheat which lead to a total waste of time.  NOT THIS TIME!  

So here goes.  Tomorrow I will start round one phase one day one (R1P1D1) I will have 2 days of loading and I am going to try to stick to high fat low carb, low sugar foods. Goals, I should put my goals here.  I am going to try to be optimistic while being realistic.  I have 4 rounds of HCG at my house ready to go.  My hopes with round one will be to just lose 20 to 30 pounds.  The guidelines of HCG say to expect .5 lbs a day, however the larger you are the more you tend to lose so I think this is a realistic goal.  


Wish me luck, I will be back soon to update more, including my actual weight/measurments and post my 'before pictures'.  

R2P2D4

weight: 225.3

Down: -0.5
total lost this round: 7.9
total lost over all: 45.9


Well I knew it had to happen eventually.  Things were going so great I had to have a less than 2 pound loss at some point, right?  I think it is because I had a bite or two of pineapple.  I didn't realize it was a 'forbidden fruit' but stopped and checked before I ate too much.  

Off to grocery shop and replenish my supplies.  I am going to pick up some protein shakes and bars that are allowed that will help on days when I just don't have time to cook, like this am. 

Oh also this is a good time to take my measurements:

bust: 45(no bra)
waist:39
hips:46
legs: 23.5
arms:14.5

ALMOST back

We are 95% done with our move, YIPPEEEEEE but due to placement of our new cable modem I need to buy a new power strip to be able to plug in my Wii SO that being said I am heading out this afternoon and I will begin posting weights again tomorrow.   Unfortunately I don't expect to see much good as I got a cold the same time we moved and the two together caused me to fall really hard off of protocol.  ;(   Guess we will know for sure tomorrow!

R1P2D6

weight: 223.5
Down:.5
total lost this round:6.9
total lost over all: 6.9
 goal this round 66 lbs

note to self, when you have a bad day, and cheat...it takes more than one day to bounce back!  All the more motivation not to cheat.  Err....still I am down and average of more than one pound a day so far so not complaining.  I am also hitting that place where my lack of certain foods is causing thing not to run quite a routinely as I would like which I am sure is adding to my reduced numbers.  So today I am going to focus on staying on track, dinner before 7 pm (another late night yesterday thanks to us working on moving to a new house down the street) and maybe a cup of Smooth Move tea. ;)  
 For now time to get the kiddos moving to go to Sunday school before home again to paint my son's bed, their rooms are almost done.  More moving tonight.....BUT if I don't have dinner before 7 I will just have an apple and be done! 

R1P2D5

weight: 224
Down:+.9
total lost this round:6.2
total lost over all: 6.2
 goal this round 66 lbs

I can't say I didn't expect this.  We had gymnastics last night and I didn't get to eat dinner until after 7 pm.  also I got a little cocky and snacked.  I need to plan better and bring food to eat while my daughter is at practice so I don't have to wait until we get home.   

What sucks is I still went to be hungry and woke up starving. ;(


Have to leave in an hour for 3 1/2 MORE hours at gymnastics so I need to go prep myself some lunch so I don't do something stupid again.  

R1P2D4

weight: 223.1
Down:2.2
total lost this round:7.3
total lost over all: 7.3
 goal this round 66 lbs


Why oh why did I resist the drops for so long?  They cost me less and seem to be working so much better.  Now in fairness I am certain my head is in a much better place this round and I have so much more will power so that is something but still.   I mean like last night, I was sitting up watching tv and my head was saying, go in the kitchen EAT but I kept my hands busy and kept my lazy butt on the couch and resisted.  That wasn't hunger that was WANT. I am very happy that I seem to know the difference.  At this rate, I will hit my first 10 pound goal in the next 2 days!  I do know however weekends are usually my downfall so we have to see how this pans out. 

I can't really say what I ate yesterday, I was running errands all day and basically ate on the run and really don't remember but I do know I stayed mostly with in protocol.  I ate a few Doritos but otherwise I was good.  Seeing my daily results is definitely giving me motivation to stay on track.   

R1P2D3

weight: 225.3
Down:2.9
total lost this round:5.1
total lost over all: 5.1
 goal this round 66 lbs


So yesterday was going soooo well.  We were busy but I had time to have some small steak medallions sauteed and sliced into a salad for lunch.  I had two apples during the day for snacks and then while at gymnastics with my daughter I snacked on some sugar peas that she loves.  I am still not sure they are 100% allowed but I figured it was better by far than buying chips so thought it was ok (and it obviously was...)  When we got home from gymnastics I sauteed up a piece of chicken breast and just ate it by itself, allowing the sugar pea things as the veggie for that meal.   

I did find myself snacking on about 10 Doritos and I ate 3 Happy Cola gummies.   As the night went on I really did want to put that bag of Doritos over my head like a feed bag but now I am SOOOO glad that I resisted because the results were totally worth it.  I am OVER half way to my first mini goal of 10 pounds and I am only on day 3!  I can totally do this, right???? 

R1P2D1

weight: 229.9
Down:.9
total lost this round:.9
total lost over all: .9
 goal this round 66 lbs


Ok, I did pretty well yesterday.  Got all my drops in and loaded away.  Today we hit the ground running with the very low calorie diet part of this diet.  I am also going to start taking my African mango.  So far I do feel like I have had less appetite.  My biggest challenge will be not eating just because I want to eat.  Wish me luck. 

R1P1D2

weight: 230.8
Down:+.4
total lost this round:
total lost over all: 
 goal this round 66 lbs

Oh I am not a fan of loading.  It doesn't help that I am working on painting my new house so we can move soon and I spent all day at the new house which means I did not have my drops with me, which probably doesn't help with things.  So far I have to say I prefer the injections just because I do it first thing in the morning and I am done. On the other hand, I only took the drops first thing in the morning but I have to say I wasn't really hungry most of the day.  

So hopefully today I can start getting in the habit of taking them on time and eating the way I should.  I guess I will have to carry the bottle with me where ever I go, which makes me a little nervous because it is a glass bottle.  I think I have enough fat stores that when I go to VLCD tomorrow I shouldn't have much trouble.  I just have to load smartly today.   

R4P2D22

weight: 219.8
Down:-1.1
total lost this round: 9.5
total lost over all: 51.4


I had a good day yesterday.  I had grilled chicken and lettuce for lunch and a bit of pork steak for dinner.  snacked on an apple and orange during the day.   Sorry,  I don't have time for more... my little man is trying to drag me away.  ;) 

R4P2D21

Sorry, busy weekend.  My little girl turns 8 tomorrow and that means a sleep over with her friends and a big family gathering.  That also mean Grandma's most delicious birthday cake and a large batch of won tons which equal to a 1.8 lb gain.  Am I happy about this? No but to be honest I really expected it to be more so I will not complain.  I did it to myself.  I have really not done well this round.  I have 20 pounds I really want to lose but for what ever reason my focus isn't here like it has been int he past.

The next big event in our life is a move, which isn't helping but I am going to break this plateau(it isn't really so much a plateau as a mental block at this weight) but I AM going to do it!   

R4P2D19

weight: 219.1
Down:-1.1
total lost this round: 10.1
total lost over all: 52.1

 I did so much better yesterday. I fought my urge to eat rather than give into it, which has been my problem lately.  I isn't that I have been hungry I have just WANTED to eat but I fought that last night AND then low and behold my 'friend' showed up this morning which really does explain a lot from the last couple of days. 

So yesterday I had shrimp and cabbage for lunch and a little lean beef for dinner with an apple for a snack.  

This weekend is my daughter's birthday and I know I will be tempted but luckily now I know at least some people really read this and will probably call me out when you see me nibbling on junk so I will fight the urge!   

R4P2D17

weight: 218.7
Down:1.1
total lost this round: 10.6
total lost over all: 52.6

Ok, I know I missed a few days.  I have had a rough week.  I have actually been up around 2 pounds and I am finally back to where I was the last time I posted.   I am still having problems with hunger more than in previous rounds and stress eating is getting to me.  I am trying really hard to get over this.  

Yesterday, I had a salad from Chick fila for lunch and just a little chicken for dinner with an apple for snack.  I was craving the crap out of chocolate though so I wonder if my 'time' is coming earlier than I expect, actually with my mood and a few other factors I am almost positive that is what is going on.